Due to some hormonal changes she has not been on birth control, which obviously complicated sex even further than a strained relationship does. She intended to go back on it at the beginning of the year, and her OBGYN appointment had to be cancelled due to COVID. She promised me that it would be rescheduled before our trip, and that became the beginning of our journey. I had become a masturbation addict and porn watcher when our 9 year relationship hit its all time low. When she made me that promise to make the get away weekend so special for me (just so happens it is the weekend before Valentine’s Day, women can’t help themselves but to be romantic
I now have an account on this forum, I will be surprised if it is the latter. This first journey post is to give a background story leading up our start of chastity. I will add what happened in the first few weeks later from the few notes I have, it was an absolute whirlwind, and time flew by. But I want to be able to document the week leading up to the get away weekend.
T minus 7 days -
Friday - We leave in 1 week. I had a long stressful day at work today, and we were apart tonight, she works nights. We spoke over the phone twice, but I was short the first time at work, and the second time she had some left over work stuff she needed to get off her chest on her commute to work. We small talk texted over the course of the evening. She broke the news to me that her OBGYN appointment was not going to be in time for our get away. I was devastated. I had been looking forward to unprotected sex that weekend for so long now. It has been many months since we have been able to do that due to her being off of birth control and pregnancy being a concern due to other health issues; and it certainly hadn’t been helping our relationship. I felt like this was all her fault, by not insisting with her doctors office more, or not coming up with a solution sooner. I decided I wanted to quit chastity all together. I thought it wasn’t fair to me. Then I had a major perspective shift, and one I would have never had if I wouldn’t have been forced by chastity to spend less time thinking about myself, and more time thinking about her. I realized, maybe she doesn’t want this either. She didn’t ask for all these problems, she didn’t want her appointment to be cancelled, and she definitely didn’t want it to take this long to be rescheduled.
Saturday - Reflecting on my thoughts last night really made me realize how selfish I have been, especially when it comes to sex and intimacy. I felt genuinely bad about this and it depressed me quite a bit. That, combined with her work schedule meant very little time for much togetherness the start of this weekend. I did spend about 2 hours locked and gave her a manicure (she likes the SNS powder and it takes a WHILE to do; something that I have just learned since she started holding my key) on Saturday night though, while she watched a movie she choose.