Used to be a game, now she's serious

[lockedbywife]

We're in our mid 30s, been married a decade. I've always had a fetish for this subject and female domination in general. Something about enforced chastity though just seemed like the sexiest thing. Our relationship has evolved over time. The longest I've ever gone in chastity before now was about 3 weeks. And even then, I almost had to dare her to put me through it. I could've gotten away with "sneaking one in" on so many occasions those times. So, it was a turn on sure, but I could always manipulate the situation to get out of it, even if it was just by complaining a little bit. I almost had to try and use reverse psychology to get her to keep it going. Her heart wasn't in it so it wasn't "real".

It has been a few years since we've even played around with chastity at this point. She would tease me for a day on the weekend, let me orgasm before the weekend was over. That was our standard sex life on weekends where we even did anything.

Several months back we start trying for kids. First month it's just so vanilla. We try when she's fertile and barely do anything when she's not. I just take care of myself. The idea hits me that maybe it's more fun if she makes an effort to deny me until that time of the month comes around again. We give that a try and it's definitely more interesting, and figure that'll be the new routine. She has incentive to take it more seriously now so I'll be more interested when it's time to try again. Mid way through the next month we kind of realize that we have a few vacations coming up, and maybe it makes sense to hold off trying for about 3 months just so we can drink and enjoy the trips. No big deal, or so I thought. I kind of figured we'd set this chastity stuff aside until it was time to try again.

Didn't happen. Not only did she want to keep going, but every trick in the book I used to pull to get out of it is no longer working. The most startling thing I think is that in the past this wasn't natural for her. She'd get excited on occasion but no more than any other time. Now she'll unlock me just to tease me. She'll slide her pussy all over and around my dick without letting it in, and she gets wetter than she ever has before, like to the point of dripping. The first time that happened it blew my mind that she was getting legitimately turned on. She'll even fuck me once in a while being very careful not to let me orgasm. Every single time though no matter how much I beg or complain, the cage goes back on. I'm allowed out to go to work but she's all over me when I come home and makes me put it back on (NOTE: To avoid any confusion based on initial responses to my post, this is 100% consensual. She commands me to put the device back on, and I comply). Given the intensity at which she's going at this and the fact that she would kick my ass if I did, I don't care try to sneak one in when out of the house, but it's really starting to ache now.

I think I can truly say at this point, it's kind of gone too far. It's hot as hell and as intense as anything I've ever experienced sexually. But at the same time it's maddening. Like I seriously get fired up when she's not paying attention to me, and when she does pay attention to me it just makes it worse. I'm more moody, I crave sex all the time, and she exploits that. I've been on one trip with her to a warm weather climate and seen girls in bikinis everywhere. I've been to a strip club. She chains me to the bed and makes me watch porn. She gets off with her dildo right in my face and then sits on it. I haven't had a single orgasm and it builds and builds. She gets wetter and wetter the more she tells me that I'm going to be locked up for a long time.

Bottom line, I WANT OUT, and CAN'T GET OUT! (Clarification: This is only how I feel during intense moments of interaction and denial. I would take an orgasm in those moments if I could, but once the moment passes I'm either back in chastity or at least in a place where it's 100% clear I'm not to do anything about my urges.) I've asked for a bitch in the bedroom for years, and now I have it. Careful what you wish for I guess? Has anybody been in a situation where you wanted it to end and just couldn't make it happen? I feel like I'm going insane and every time I lash out at her about it, she just uses it as an excuse to add time to my sentence. My feelings are so mixed. It's so hot, but I just want to come so freakin bad and I can't even think straight at work any more. The feeling of blue balls won't go away and the thought of what is happening enters my mind at the worst times on occasion. It's a legitimate distraction. I'm about a month in which is about as long as I've ever gone.

Has anybody experienced anything similar? How do you cope? I fear this could continue on for quite a while.

[slave d]

Sorry but my personal view (i am locked 24/7) is that nobody can force you to remain chaste if you don't wish it. So in my view either you're enjoying this fantasy or it's purely fantasy.

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[lockedbywife]

Let me be clear, I'm no doubt enjoying it. It's just at a completely new level and it's really really unexpected and difficult. I brought this upon myself all the way.

[lockedbywife]

I'm completely new to this level of chastity which I admit is nothing compared to somebody who is locked 24/7. Everybody's situation is going to be completely different. That said, the levels at which this crossed this time are beyond anything I ever thought she was capable of, so it's just a little scary. I dared her and dared her and challenged her over a period of a decade (and we had fun all along), and now I'm kind of actually getting what I fantasized about. But when you get the fantasy sometimes you don't realize all that goes into it. The extreme nature of it is absolutely challenging. Of course depending on where my head is at in a given day, I fantasize more about her withholding my orgasms for an entire year. That concept will always be hot to me. When she gets me in the bedroom though, the feeling of helplessness is overwhelming. She turns me into her pathetic toy and nothing I can do will change her mind.

What about the physical side of it? The aching balls. It's kind of fun at home but man is it an irritant when I'm trying to focus on something serious. Does it get any easier or does the buildup just make it more and more unbearable? I will say I envy anybody who can be locked 24/7. There's something really exciting about that too, but it's not practical in our situation. At the same time, it's fun to be able to engage in sexual interaction and be denied as well.

[lockedbywife]

For the mods:

I'm obviously new to these forums and have no intention of breaking any rules and if I'm misunderstanding what this is all about so be it, but I couldn't help but notice my post was moved to "fiction". The only thing "fiction" about my post is that I'm confused about my own intentions in all this. Every single fact of what I wrote is 100% true. To me this is absolutely a real and exciting personal journey. But certainly respect the fact that if there are people 24/7 chaste and my situation involves some sexual interaction, maybe I'm missing the point of this forum. Was just looking for a place to engage anonymously with similar minded individuals and get some perspectives.

[Sonicmerlin1]

Sorry but my personal view (i am locked 24/7) is that nobody can force you to remain chaste if you don't wish it. So in my view either you're enjoying this fantasy or it's purely fantasy.

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This is the fiction section...

[slave d]

Sorry but my personal view (i am locked 24/7) is that nobody can force you to remain chaste if you don't wish it. So in my view either you're enjoying this fantasy or it's purely fantasy.

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This is the fiction section...

It was originally in the "nonfiction" area, hence my first response !!

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[lockedbywife]

Heh, alright, I give up. Guess this was the wrong place for me.

[slave d]

Heh, alright, I give up. Guess this was the wrong place for me.

Possibly but i think you need to realise your first post read very much as if you were suggesting you didn't want this !! even suggesting you were more or less forced into chastity on your return from work every day, something that's patently not possible !! (my keyholder struggles to lock me up even when i want Her to !!). If this was not what you wished to convey then you need to look at the way you write a FIRST post on a forum that's generally made up of genuinely chaste guys and their equally knowledgable KeyHolders. Even as new as i am to this at only four months in, felt that your post was fantasy more than fact. Had you made it obvious that this was all a "mutual play" between you and your KeyHolder i'm sure you would have recieved a more sympathetic response all round.

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[Atone]

Heh, alright, I give up. Guess this was the wrong place for me.

lockedbywife, we are looking in to why it got moved to fiction. Don't give up yet, let us figure this out. Sometimes mistakes happen.