Reality setting in?

[locked2011]

So its been 25 days since lock-in. It seems like I always get really conflicted around the 1 month mark. Of course I am dying for relief, but even if I could talk my KH into relinquishing the keys I know I would be disappointed if I did.
That said, we had several very long and specific conversations about the subject in December and, short of being admitted to the hospital, its not likely that I will be unlocked before 1/1/12. And that, the finality of the decision, is starting to feel a bit more real to me now.
I did get out with some friends on Saturday night but didn't meet anyone too interesting so I suppose that is actually a relief... Maybe by October I will be able to time it so that intimacy coincides with my release date

I did learn something interesting on Fetlife this week - One of the chastity groups (Enforced Chastity, I think) had a posting that described the use of a male condom catheter used on the outside of a chastity tube to enable the wearer to use a urinal. I am going to give this a try and will report back on my results - I would LOVE to be able to pee standing up again!

Well, nothing much else to report - posting about it helps - sorry to rant!

[davidphd1866]

Once in a while the reality of being locked really hits me. I am glad you bring up this post.

For me, it's not always being "horny" that wants me to be unlocked. It's instead the realization that I am not allowed to play with my cock. Having to make special provisions to pee, shower, double underwear for leakage, etc. etc. All of these things sometimes make me wish I wasn't locked.

Probably one of the toughest aspects of being locked is when I see porn pictures of "blessed" individuals being sucked, fucked because the women just can't keep their hands off of their big cocks. Knowing that isn't--and won't--be me, makes the reality really set in.

David

[ChastizedRob]

Probably one of the toughest aspects of being locked is when I see porn pictures of "blessed" individuals being sucked, fucked because the women just can't keep their hands off of their big cocks. Knowing that isn't--and won't--be me, makes the reality really set in.

I agree! I have had only one orgasm 10 days ago before being locked on Jan 4! and my KH is keeping me locked until at least 30 days! Today was very, very difficult at several times. I agree with your thoughts on porn, but I'm not sure why I still cannot stop looking at or watching it! Sometime I do just to know what a great feeling I'm going to have in 20 more day!

[davidphd1866]

Thanks Rob, I am glad I am not the only one.

[locked2011]

Well it seems we are all in the same boat!

[locked2011]

By the way, Since my original post here I have been testing the condom catheter on the outside of my chastity device.

Here's what I have learned so far: First, its important to carefully center the condom on the end of the tube before you unroll the adhesive part or everything gets wrinkled and stuck together. Second, once unrolled, unless your device is huge, you need to trim the condom to be a bit shorter than the device otherwise the adhesive constantly pinches your skin on between the excess silicon and the edge of the tube.

The upside is that yes, I can use any urinal almost as easily as if I was not locked. I say almost because I learned through trial (and embarrassing error) I found that you have to pull your entire package (i.e. chastity device and testicles) out of your underwear to keep the urine from back-flowing out the rear of the tube. I learned this on Friday though and have not had any leakage or issues since then. Cleaning has not changed, I am still able to use the shower tube to get plenty of soapy water in and out of the tube so the condom can be used for quite a while before changing. Unfortunately it does block off some of the vent holes so the stimulation I was able to get from the shower head is now gone - ugh! Well, at least I can still get that little pleasure between condom changes!

I have to say I think this is a real innovation and will certainly make my chaste life a bit easier to deal with for the long term.

I'd be happy to answer any questions on this subject and perhaps copy it over to a separate post if you folks think there is merit.

[davidphd1866]

Like in the Ruin Orgasms: Then and Now post by MikeandMelissa, I have my own example of "then and now".

Then: I used to become angry, disappointed and upset if my efforts to please my wife were not returned with an orgasm for me. I would deliberately do a poorer job next time to sort of even things out.

Now: I am grateful if she allows me to perform oral sex on her. (of course, without orgasm for me)