A Journey into Chastity

[deepj15]

I too enjoyed reading what you wrote and the replies. I am ordering a cb6000s for my husband and am looking forward to locking him up soon.

And being a woman, I do find it hard to stop taking care of everyone. My husband has been very attentive lately towards me and I am enjoying it immensely but still feel like I should be doing for him so I am learning to just enjoy the attention.

[CaptivatedCaveman]

deepj15, thanks for the kind response. Sorry I didn't reply to you sooner. While I generally check in on the forums daily, I have far fewer opportunities to craft responses.

As far as the dynamic with your husband goes, remember that if this is making him happy then you ARE "doing for him." Sometimes inaction is the best action. Best of luck.

[CaptivatedCaveman]

I stopped my recounting of last week's events on Thursday night since it seemed dramatically appropriate to do so, even though my original plan was to finish with the rest of the week.

So to continue, I slept without the device Thursday night. My wife left early Friday morning. The skin looked and felt sufficiently recovered that I locked myself back in, feeling a little uncertain as I did so. This was the first time I had been locked up without my wife's involvement and I felt a little uncertain if this was okay. The last thing I wanted to do was screw up our new dynamic.

I called her from the road a little later and confirmed that she didn't mind as long as I was comfortable. Phew. I ended up wearing it through a wedding we attended Saturday. I was a little nervous dancing with it on. I kept having visions of the seam splitting and the thing tumbling down my pants leg and onto the floor. I've started thinking about what I want in a metal device, just for the peace of mind.

Saturday night my wife unlocked me to give the skin a rest. In addition to the wedding, my kids had birthday parties to attend so it was a busier weekend than I prefer. Also, Mother's Day, so I took the kids out of the house for several hours and gave her a long, relaxing break.

All through the weekend, my wife kept hinting that we might have some fun Sunday night. She didn't say anything outright, more the wink-and-a-nod treatment. So, all excited, I made sure everything was squared away for us to grab some private time. I shower and enter the bedroom, locking the door behind me. My wife has me kneel up on the bed. She examines my cock and balls. "Hardly anything at all," she says, referring to the wear and tear on my skin. "Okay," she says then, "lock it up."

I think I did a double take at that point. If this scene had a soundtrack, this is where the music would suddenly stop with the sound of a needle scratching vinyl. What did she just say?!

She smiled at my dumbfounded look. "You thought I was going to play with you, didn't you?"

Yes, yes I did, I think to myself as I pull the chastity device out. I realize and appreciate what she's doing, but it's taking my body some time to catch up. I have to work to reign in my lust. We talk about it as I set up the massage table and give her another long, slow massage.

She admitted to some hesitancy in her decision not to play with me. It gave me the opportunity to say, "You know, screw this. I want you to touch my cock."

She took a risk, wanting to see what I'd do. To see if I was serious about what we're doing or would I snap the first time I didn't get what I wanted. And although my lizard brain was yelling at me, wanting to be pleasured, the rest of me was overjoyed at this step. I felt that we had both accomplished something special. If she hadn't challenged me, it wouldn't be real control.

We finish the massage and get into bed. I ask her if she wants any attention. My hunger to go down on her has been growing daily and she hasn't giving me the opportunity since we started this new phase of our marriage. It's starting to drive me nuts. But no, she says, she's tired and not in that kind of mood.

And that wraps up the weekend. We go to sleep, get up this morning and dive into our weekly routines. I'm still locked up and fairly comfortable. I did, however, just get a text from my wife which I will write here verbatim:

"I'm wearing boy short undies because NONE OF MY OTHER ONES ARE WASHED. They are crawling up my ass. While you may enjoy that image, I can assure u the toll I will exact this eve will be challenging. Mwahahahaha"

Oops. I knew I forgot to do something.

[CaptivatedCaveman]

Life smacked us upside the head yesterday. My wife unexpectedly needed surgery. Nothing life threatening, but she'd been experiencing a slowly growing pain that involved some work to fix. I don't want to go into any further detail than that for privacy's sake, but she's doing fine and coming home today.

She won't be going back to work for at least a week, so maybe she'll share more details if she wants as now she'll actually have some time to post.

I haven't written this week because when I last left things my wife had promised to make me regret leaving her without clean, comfortable underwear Monday morning. And she did. It was quick, unpleasant, and thoroughly humiliating. Something that was well within the bounds of our relationship but something I find myself too embarrassed to recount. So I won't. I wrestled with that decision all week since my goal was to openly share my thoughts, feelings and experiences here.

I'll try and write up what I remember of the rest of the week when I have a chance, but not right now. I want to get her home safe and sound first.

[TwistedMister]

I haven't written this week because when I last left things my wife had promised to make me regret leaving her without clean, comfortable underwear Monday morning. And she did. It was quick, unpleasant, and thoroughly humiliating. Something that was well within the bounds of our relationship but something I find myself too embarrassed to recount. So I won't.

Awwww, crap. Now you're just teasing us, and very cruelly.

[celticqueens_sub]

start a blog?

[CaptivatedCaveman]

I haven't written this week because when I last left things my wife had promised to make me regret leaving her without clean, comfortable underwear Monday morning. And she did. It was quick, unpleasant, and thoroughly humiliating. Something that was well within the bounds of our relationship but something I find myself too embarrassed to recount. So I won't.

Awwww, crap. Now you're just teasing us, and very cruelly.

I really don't mean to. Maybe I'll be ready to talk about it at some point. The feeling of talking into the ether and barely getting a response back is gradually making me more reticent to share. This is extremely personal stuff we're talking about here.

I guess when I started this I was expecting some sort of conversation to occur. A bit of "I know how you feel..." or "Back when my wife and I started..." and so on. It's easy to feel alone in all this. After all, besides your partner, who else in your life are you going to talk to about this stuff? I guess I thought there would be more feedback, advice, questions, whatever.

The fact that my wife goes into the hospital and no one even bothers to say, "I hope she feels better," is kind of unsettling. Maybe my expectations were off. Maybe most readers think I'm making this stuff up. I'm not really sure.

start a blog?

I've considered it. Is this forum the wrong place for the kind of account I'm providing? I'm leaning against starting a blog because I was more interested in a conversation than just airing the details of my private life. I don't feel an inherent need to do so.

[TwistedMister]

Sometimes the 'back and forth' is there, sometimes it isn't. As for your wife, you already said she was 'doing fine', which to me translates as 'feeling better'- no need to 'hope' if it's already a fact, right? And you didn't want to go into details so I left it alone.

The 'teasing' comment- just poking a little good-natured fun. There's no need to get upset, that *is* part of the back and forth that you say you're looking for. I, for one, try not to hijack someone else's thread (not always successfully) with my own addition of "Well, I..." when someone is telling their own story.

[CaptivatedCaveman]

Sometimes the 'back and forth' is there, sometimes it isn't. As for your wife, you already said she was 'doing fine', which to me translates as 'feeling better'- no need to 'hope' if it's already a fact, right? And you didn't want to go into details so I left it alone.

The 'teasing' comment- just poking a little good-natured fun. There's no need to get upset, that *is* part of the back and forth that you say you're looking for. I, for one, try not to hijack someone else's thread (not always successfully) with my own addition of "Well, I..." when someone is telling their own story.

Yeah, you make good points. I think I'm dealing with more stress from my wife's operation than I realized. Even though she is doing remarkably well, it was hard seeing her in pain with nothing I could do to help. And going to sleep alone with her in the hospital recovering from surgery Friday night just felt very, very wrong.

Expect more from me soon.

[Atone]

I'm sorry to hear that your wife's situation is causing you so much stress. I am glad that she is doing well and hope that both of you soon recover fully. I can relate to the experience of having to leave my wife (and even kids) in the hospital. It is an amazingly empty feeling.

I cannot speak for any others but I am cautious in getting too involved with someone on an Internet forum. I am reluctant to invest too much in a deeper relationship because it may disappear at any time. I have had it happen before and try to avoid it. I am interested in your journey and will continue to follow it as long as you keep updating.