[rlocked] Self Denial

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rlocked
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[rlocked] Self Denial

Post by rlocked »

Hi all and welcome to my chastity journey!

Brief introduction of why I'm currently wearing a cage...

I wouldn't say I'm addicted to masturbation and porn(maybe that's denial), but they are compulsions and have been since 11ish(now 30). I am currently single and have been for many years now. I have dabbled with self-locking before and didn't go well being too lenient on myself in some ways and I have denied myself masturbation and porn for multiple months before, but ultimately went back to old habits.

I want to be done with all of that. I don't like how "lazy" and "uncreative" I feel after an orgasm and I don't like feeling I'm giving up pursuit of an actual relationship to see others have sex and get off on it.

This may sound like a simple "no fap" scenario, but even without a KH there is a certain "loss of control", I can't get an erection and masturbate like I normally would. And from my previous experience there's a certain "edge" that you don't get when not wearing a cage. And the idea of a FLR seems enticing so this might as well be practice if I so happen to be fortunate enough to meet someone that would be on board. At the very least I want to be someone who isn't going to just waste an orgasm on some dumb screen, but experience a "little death" at someone else's pleasure.

Goals:
No more masturbation(solo) to full orgasm ever again
No more porn
Wear a cage as much as possible

Rules:
No masturbation to full orgasm
No ruined orgasm
No edging
No porn
Always wear a cage at home

If anyone has done something similar feel free to PM me if you have tips/recommendations. I want to update periodically, but it might only be "Hey new record for time in a cage" or "1 month without masturbation!"

Thanks for reading!

-R
rlocked
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Joined: Sun Oct 06, 2024 12:05 pm
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Re: [rlocked] Self Denial

Post by rlocked »

Currently:
I have not watched porn or had an orgasm since 9/27
With this stint of chastity the longest I've worn a cage is 7 hours. I have worn one for multiple days before, the cage was an HT-v2 and it was "meh". I want to wear this one as much as possible, but I'm making exceptions for myself when going out with friends, certain physical activities, just generally when I'm not by myself I won't worry about wearing a cage...for now....

My current cage is a cheap one I bought from amazon, UTIMI is the brand, it's a 3D printed one. It's pretty comfortable, i've already noticed chaffing hasn't been much of an issue. I bought a band as well to wear to keep the cage close to my body in hopes I'll be able to sleep with it. I had issues sleeping with one before because my balls sag and my penis would almost pop out of the cage. I might try to sleep with this one tonight, still feeling out if the band will be comfortable enough.

-R