[Chosen_Jackal] Pinch me, is this really happening?

[Chosen_Jackal]

Well this isn’t fun.
Red surprised me yesterday by letting me change to a different cage a day before I was told it would happen.
She sent me to the shower and joined me, getting ready to give me an edging session.
I’ve felt some slight itching down there the last few days, but it’s felt exactly like it does after being shaved and the hairs start to grow back a little.

Now this was different. I have a red rash on my member so the edging was over quickly.
I immediately applied hydrocortisone and reapplied this morning.
It already looks and feels better, but this means I’ve been uncaged since last night.
It feels weird to hang free, and I feel about as unsexual as I can right now, so at least there’s no chance I’m going to cheat.
It will hopefully clear up quickly and then we’re back to business as usual.

[Tongue+groove]

FWIW this has happened to me twice. I wouldn’t call mine a rash, but more of a red inflammation. After the second time she mandated that I be un locked daily for cleaning and lotion. I do it at the end of my shower so I’m only out for less than 5 minutes.

In Mrs. G’s words, “I don’t want you getting some sort of bacterial issue happening and me not getting to play when I want to.”

With that fear put in my head I used antibiotic ointment and cleared up in less than 48 hours.

Finally, yes as much as I want to hang free and feel fresh air. When I do it’s almost mentally disturbing. I’ll never forget the day she wanted me totally naked, said she missed watching it flop around. It was summer and we live rural so it was no problem, except for the head game.

[Chosen_Jackal]

It’s already looking better, so I’m in a very open metal cage. I’m given the keys so I can keep a look on things and do what’s needed.
I have no interest in cheating anyway, but it sure feels better when Red has the keys.

I’m pretty sure the rash is caused by me being a bit lax in making sure everything is completely dry after showering. The cobra makes it a bit awkward to get to every spot and making sure it’s all completely dry.

[Chosen_Jackal]

The rash is already much better, but I’ll keep treating it for at least a week to be on the safe side.

On a more positive note.
Red and I used to be involved in the local kink scene but we dropped out around 2017 because of kids, work, illness and life in general.

We went to our first munch in a looong time tonight and there was so many more people than we used to see. Lots of new people and even a few old friends.
I got to talk a little bit about chastity and it’s so freeing to be around other kinky people again. People with no judgment.

Red and I are in a better place than we’ve been in a long while so I think we’re both looking forward to being more social again.
There’s lots of parties and there’s even a new club so it’s looking like there’s some exciting times ahead.

We won’t be able to go all in quite yet. Red is extreme busy until the middle of may, but we will se what we can managed to do until then.

We’ve had a really great evening!

[Chosen_Jackal]

Nothing much to report today except I’m now at day twenty since I last had an orgasm. Three weeks tomorrow. My previous record was 18 days and I have no idea when Red plans to let me out and play next.
Will it be a whole month? Longer?
I’m excited to find out.

It’s strange. I’m not really horny anymore. It seems to come in waves and it appears I’m in a lull. There hasn’t been too much teasing lately and I believe my state of arousal depends on how much I’m teased, both physically and mentally. We fooled around a bit on the couch last night, but Red wasn’t feeling like taking it further so it didn’t really go anywhere.
She’s so hot and I want to do everything imaginable under the sun to her, but I try not to push her. I’d rather she come to me when she’s in the mood since that turns me on so much more.

My rash is more or less gone, but I’ll keep treating it for a while to be safe. No itching or problems down there, but it’s best to do it right.

Anyways, life goes on.

[Tongue+groove]

. We fooled around a bit on the couch last night, but Red wasn’t feeling like taking it further so it didn’t really go anywhere.

When this happens with us it reminds me of our early days when we would make out. Of course I was ultimately wanting in her pants but she was the one in control. And of course I wasn’t going to risk my chances by being pushy. Patiently playing it cool payed off then and it will now too.

It’s fun to desire, anticipate and be denied.

[Chosen_Jackal]

No one told me a side effect of being in chastity is falling in love with your woman all over again. Every day.
I’ve always found Red beautiful, but now I obsess over her.
I find myself just staring at her at random times and seeing her the same way I saw her when we first started dating. We’ve been together for over 19 years and I lover her more than ever.

She surprised me last night. She handed me the keys and told me to go clean up, but she took the cage with her so I immediately started suspecting that something was going to happen.
When I entered the bedroom she had laid out a pair of wrist restraints and instructed me to put them on.
I didn’t hesitate, keen as I was to see where this was going.
She told me to lay down on my back.
We have this load bearing pillar at the end of our bed from when we extended our bedroom and she put my arms around it and fastened the restraints so I was securely fastened.
Helpless and exposed.
I loved it!

What followed was one of the best nights in a long time.
Red knows I’m keen to experiment with having my prostate massaged and she gave me a long and delightful session where she used a stainless steel njoy wand on me.
I didn’t get off, but it felt amazing. It was our first time playing like this so we both considered it a success.
It took me some time to relax mentally and get into it because I’m so unused to being the center of attention. It’s like my brain and body has been rewired to think of pleasure as something that’s for Red to enjoy and not for me, but once I got over that I had a great time.
I was also conscious of how Red might think I wasn’t into it since I was completely soft throughout this experience, so I reassured her that I always go soft then I’m stimulated anally.

We continued with getting Red off and it was so nice to hold her tight and use my fingers and the dildo on her.
I asked sheepishly if I could feel how it was to enter her myself and she said yes, but I wasn’t allowed to cum.
It was heavenly. I’d almost forgotten how good it feels to be inside her, and I felt a mix of excitement and humiliation as I felt that I was close to cumming after an embarrassingly short amount of time.
Red loved seeing me struggling through it though.
I asked her how it felt to have me inside her.
Underwhelming was the reply.
I felt the sting of humiliation, but also loved it deep down. She’s used to the bigger dildos now, and we enjoy playing with her putting me down. She struggled with it in the beginning, but she seems more and more comfortable doing so now.

We ended the playtime with Red edging me with her hands. She brought me close several times and I swear this feels better than having an orgasm. The orgasm in itself might be more intense, but it’s over in seconds. Being kept on the edge for 30-40 minutes is a level of pleasure I didn’t realize I was capable of experiencing.
It ended with Red milking me as a good amount of cum oozed out of me.
I couldn’t understand how people could prefer ruined orgasms over regular orgasms before, but now I’m properly in the ruined camp.
An amazing evening!

I woke up with a bit of a funky mood today. I believe I was experienced what I’ve heard others describe as subdrop. I felt detached and unsure of myself. I felt the humiliation from last night more keenly and struggled a bit with my anxiety around being enough for Red.
In the past I would’ve let these feeling fester and grow and it wouldn’t be unthinkable to let them sour my entire day.
But here’s where Red and I have matured.
She’s told me to come to her when I’m experiencing negative thoughts instead of telling her afterwards.
I told her how I felt and she reassured me that she loves me, still sees me as just as "manly" as ever, and that her respect for me has only grown stronger.
All the negative emotions vanished in an instant and I felt seen and loved. We agreed that we should be better at doing after care when we play like this since it’s new thing for us to play so heavily with power exchange.

It’s incredible what we can achieve together with communication, respect and love.

[Tongue+groove]

Two quick comments if I may.

Being in the ruined camp for us was a big step, especially for her. The power exchange involved was difficult for her to understand. when she learned the long term rewards she became more in tune with her efforts. It does require a different level of communication, which is a good thing.

Secondly we have also realized the importance of quality aftercare. I’m no cross dresser by any means but she has a dedicated nightie that I wear after extreme events. It’s snug on me but smells like her. I refer to it as sleeping in her skin. Sometime in the night I will wake up and remove it feeling much better.

[Chosen_Jackal]

We are both familiar with the need of aftercare from our time doing more traditional BDSM activities, but I guess I was naive when i thought there wouldn’t be a need for it after this kind of play as well.

I don’t wear her nighties, but it’s essential for me to spoon up to her, feel her body against mine and smell her hair.
It’s the safest place on earth for me.

[Tongue+groove]

. smell her hair.

Back in the day we spent 16 weeks apart at different colleges, snail mail and expensive long distance phone calls was all we had. We would see each other in person about once a month. I grew so wanton for the smell of her hair that she gave me a lock of it. I got to cut it from a discreet location and she tied a bow on it. The missing lock only she knew about and I still have it to this day.

Truly a safe place to be.