[Chosen_Jackal] Pinch me, is this really happening?

[Tongue+groove]

Hopefully this reply doesn’t over do it, if so just say back off and I will.

I can only sum up your first paragraph as cumfusion. It’s disturbingly blissful. Solution? Just enjoy it, your going down the only road to getting there.

were partners before everything else

This sounds like my wife again. This says you have a solid relationship. It’s reassuring knowing we have this. It doesn’t come easy and it is to be highly guarded.

she told me with a soft voice that she wanted me to fuck her. Fuck, but not cum.

The first time I heard these very same words I knew she was committed to this as a lifestyle, she was more confident in her role and obligation sex no longer existed. This is may be the most intimate way to pleasure your wife. It truly shows your willingness to sacrifice for her.

And finally, sorry again.

She just like the word milking better for this

This is good to hear. Mrs. G hates the term ruined. She refers to it as a dribble cum. Her position is that it’s fun for her, it keeps my pipes clean and functional, and no drop in energy. In fact I usually sleep better and am more energetic tomorrow. We have currently set out to see how long we can manage this as my only form of release. She will probably have more of a challenge than myself. There’s something about playing with me that causes her to be extremely horny for full blown old fashion sex.

If you need to keep your energy up for surgery this may be the right path.

Well wishes with your health.

[Chosen_Jackal]

Don’t worry T&G, I enjoy your insights on these matters. Please feel free to chime in whenever you feel like.

I’m reading your thread diligently and I also see many similarities between Red’s and Ms G’s approach to this.
I feel confident that this lifestyle is sustainable for us even after this short while. We haven’t found any downsides so far at a least.

I like the word cumfusion

[BunBunsbuttboy]

Honestly really enjoying reading your journey. Im so grateful us chastised fellas have some sweetheart attentive and supportive KH wives. I would be upside down in a hole without @RoyalRabbit . Thanks for giving us this insight into your life! Best wishes for your health and recovery : )

[Chosen_Jackal]

Im just happy I’ve found this community. I’ve learned so much in such a short amount of time. I’m glad to hear that Red and my journey brings some entertainment or joy for others to read as well.

Thank the stars for our kind key holders indeed!

[Chosen_Jackal]

Everything is a little bit grey today. I’m not sad or down or anything like that, but the buzzing from the last few days is gone.

It feels like we’ve settled nicely into this new life. Red seems to be more and more comfortable with expecting things from me less uncomfortable with being "bossy" every day.
I woke up yesterday, knowing that Red had promised me a ruined orgasm, or milking as Red likes to call them some time during the night.
It’s strange how I was more excited for that than a normal orgasm. You’d think I’d want the ecstasy of the big O, but knowing that would mean several days of building the tension back up again somehow makes it seem not worth it.
If it’s true what they say, a ruined one is better to release some steam without a drop in the buzz.

Now, as the day turned into evening and evening approached night it was clear to us both that we were pretty tired after the days chores and activities. Work, two teenagers, the dog and everything else that factors in to our lives had left its mark.
At one point Red said that she felt pretty tired and maybe she’d decide to postpone my milking until next evening.
I was a bit disappointed, but I tried to hide it as well as I could.
Maybe I didn’t do a good enough job…

When it approached bed time Red told me to get her key so she could unlock me for a proper wash.
She followed me to bed and started teasing me. I had trouble focusing for some reason. I was horny as hell earlier in he day, but I think it might be the combination of the unfamiliarity of being uncaged and knowing that Red was tired that caused this.
It was like I had trouble getting fully hard.
Here’s where Red surprised me though.
I don’t know if she sensed that I was having some troubles or not, but she switched gears and turned the kink up. She cuffed my hands behind my back and placed the dildo besides my cock and started sucking on the dildo instead of me.
She made me compare myself to it as she looked at me with devil eyes.
She made me watch as she pleasured herself with the dildo before commanding me to lick her clit.
Not an easy task with my arms behind me back, but I managed.
She told me to lie on my back and she placed the dildo on my chest and sat herself down on it, burying my face with the folds of her vulva.
At this point I had no problem getting hard, let me assure you.

After she was satisfied with this position she took the dildo and pushed it into my mouth and told me to suck on it. I tasted her on it and she started stroking and licking the tip of my cock.
I hadn’t been given permission to cum so I made sure to let her know if I got close. As far as I knew I was to be milked.
Now here’s where it got a bit difficult to control the situation.
When we combine the fact that Red gets excited at the prospect of seeing cum leaking out of me without me having an orgasm with the difficulty of me letting her know I was getting close due to having a dildo showed in my mouth the inevitable happened again.
I tried to tell her, but she stopped stroking me too late and even though she stopped before I came, there was a pop and my load shot out of me.
It felt like a middle ground of a ruined orgasm and a full one. It was pleasurable for sure, but as orgasms come it was pretty meh.
Red immediately felt bad for making me cum, but I reassured her that she didn’t do anything wrong. Everything was perfect up until that point and we just got excited. Besides, as my key holder she’s well within her right to do anything she wants to me. It seems she’s still having trouble putting the feelings that she needs to do things to please me aside.

Either way, I came and I could immediately feel myself deflating. We made sure that Red had her orgasm as well and then I got locked back up and it was time to sleep.

I feared that I would feel less motivated to be a proper submissive and service oriented partner to Red today. Having had an orgasm yesterday left me thinking that it would be difficult to be as caring and attentive as I’ve been lately, but I’m not a slave to my biology.
I’ve actually felt properly motivational to do as much as I can for her today. It’s all in my head it seems.

[Chosen_Jackal]

Rather vanilla day yesterday. No touching or teasing of any kind, but I’m okay with life not being super exciting all the time.
Red and me did spend time together in the evening as a couple and I had a wonderful time.
Red is a big fan of audiobooks.
She listens to them all the time while she works and doing solo activities, and she’s got a few that she believes I would enjoy listening to as well.
It’s a little weird and too passive to just sit quietly beside each other and listen to an audiobook, so we’ve chosen som activities that doesn’t require too much attention to keep our hands busy.

We’ve built Lego, but Lego has become so damn expensive that we can’t keep buying new sets all the time. Especially the ones that actually take some time to put together. Those costs hundreds of dollars each.
So we’ve turned to solving jigsaw puzzles.
We solve puzzles and listen to audiobooks together.

A few new cages arrived in the mail yesterday. These were all cheap knockoffs from china. They’re of various design and we’re trying different styles to see what we like before we buy the real thing.
I wore a new short one yesterday and through the night. It’s got way thinner bars than the cobra nub I’m so used to so there’s more access, easier to clean, but also way more painful when my nighttime erections push the head of my penis through the openings. Not entirely unenjoyable, but it has made get up two times last night to get the erections down.

Red is still sleeping. She complained last night that she hadn’t gotten enough massages yesterday so I’m going to sneak back to the bedroom and softly start massaging her feet…

As always. Comments are welcome.

[Tongue+groove]

So we’ve turned to solving jigsaw puzzles.

This is one of our favorite pastimes. Since chastity we have purchased several new ones. It seems that the longer we’re on this journey the more we do together like this.

We usually just listen to music, thanks for the audio book idea.

[Chosen_Jackal]

I’d say we’ve been better at prioritizing spending time together since before we started this chastity journey, but it’s really gotten way better since I got locked up.

I’ve completely cut off all social media and my focus has been on Red, family, work and socializing.

I’ve yet to see any downsides to this

[denied_one]

I’ve completely cut off all social media and my focus has been on Red, family, work and socializing.

I’ve yet to see any downsides to this

Wow! We "made the cut", here at CF hehehe

Congrats on the personal growth through chastity!

[Chosen_Jackal]

I’m back to buzzing again today. I can feel it in my body, the feeling of excitement and energy that amps up a few volts every time Red enters the room.

We took a break from laying puzzles and listening to her audiobooks last night and watched a movie and a couple of episodes of a show we’ve been meaning to watch. We used to watch a lot more movies and shows a few years back, but we’ve slowly drifted away from it.
I believe I’ve been too restless to focus in the tv for long, but now that I’m locked up and focused on staying near Red that’s seems to have changed.

She told me casually that there would be no sex tonight. No mam. Yes mam.
That’s entirely your decision.
She said she didn’t feel like it.
As bedtime came we talked a bit, then we kissed a bit… and then I saw it in her eyes that she might have changed her mind.

What followed was monumental to me. I believe, at least hope Red feels the same way, because we managed something that’s been elusive to us our entire relationship.

Red might not like me saying this and I will delete this section if she tells me so, but she’s never had an orgasm from penetration alone with me.
My penis is above average in size, but not massive.
We used the big dildo last night. I wore it in a strap on harness and we found the rhythm that Red clearly enjoys.
Now this dildo is big. 10 inches in length and 6,3 inches in circumference.
We took it slow, deep and long movements that seemed to hit the right spots.
I’ve never seen Red so beautiful as she climaxed from me making slow and hard, yet sensual love to her. I cradled her in my arms the whole time while we were at it and it game me such a rush.

We didn’t stop there. We eased into another round, this time she held her small bullet vibrator to her clit at the same time and she came again.

She was spent. I could have gone for another and another if she’d wanted me to.
I didn’t feel any sense of shame or self resentment from the fact that I’ve never been able to give Red this experience before. I was just so happy to see her so satisfied and radiant.
It was a hard night for me as my penis tried desperately to get som attention, but it was securely locked away.
I think we all realize now that the less that little guy gets any action, the better all our lives are.

I woke up before Red today. It’s Mother’s Day here in Norway so I had her coffe ready. Just needed to push the button when she came down the stairs.
Before she woke up however I wrote her a letter that detailed everything I’m feeling about this journey we’re on. How I feel about her and myself, the way I hope and dream our life will develop while recognizing that she is feee to take the lead in what that looks like.
I might share this letter here one day, but for now it’s between Red and me.

She woke up, I handed her her coffee and asked what she wanted to eat. Waffles! So waffles she got and the rest of this day looks to be wonderful!