[Chosen_Jackal] Pinch me, is this really happening?

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Tongue+groove wrote: Fri Jan 24, 2025 8:27 am Just a few quick thoughts. Everything in your post we have all probably been through. You’re in the right mindset. You probably had a hormonal shift you never used to recognize and now you and her both see it. you may want to discuss ruined cums as you are less likely to get the drop.

Secondly, these events can really escalate the communication, which you obviously experienced. Good for you both.

And finally when you have those frustrating days and you don’t know where you’re going and she doesn’t understand you, well be careful. When I have mine, Mrs. G let’s me vent, then she consoles me, then she tells me to lockup and man up because she’s not going back to the old way as of now.

And kudos for you managing the 10 incher, I’m envious. Make up sex is the best. Especially when you don’t get to cum. :lol:
Yeah you’ve touched on a lot of the lessons I fell we both learned yesterday. I’m glad to hear that you think we’re on the right path. It’s a lot to digest at times but it sure feels so much more fulfilling to live this way than the way it was before.
I was seriously considering if I needed therapy to still the racing thoughts in my head and now that we’ve shifted the dynamics of our relationship it all feels safe and right.

I’m a few hours away from completing my first week in total lockup, only been let out for hygiene and edging. I know I’m not going to be allowed to cum tonight, but A has told me tomorrow night is when I’ll get my reward. I’m genuinely torn. I want to cum so bad, but I also don’t want to lose this incredible feeling I have right now.
I’m locked and kept by Redraven, my life partner, soulmate and loving key holder. When life is hard, she’s keeps me feeling loved.
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I’m genuinely torn. I want to cum so bad, but I also don’t want to lose this incredible feeling I have right now.
Oh yeah, been there too. Just wait until she has you just before the point of no return and she stops all activities and asks you if you want to cum or not.

Total mind fuck and there’s no right answer. Because your little head wants to but your big head knows better. Which one has the stronger influence?
She says ‘it’s cute’ in the nub. ;)
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All I know is that the flesh is weak…
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Chosen_Jackal wrote: Fri Jan 24, 2025 9:10 am All I know is that the flesh is weak…
True!!

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind
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From now on, my key holder formerly referred to as A will be known as Redraven.
She’s has registered a profile on this forums and this is the name she has chosen to be known as.

We’re coming up on two weeks since we started this journey together.
My first lock up was for four days and tonight marks the eight day of my second period of being locked.
Redraven decided to let me out of the cage tonight and reward me, but like everything else she does, tonight’s fun had a twist.

It started with lots of kissing and oral sex for her. Redraven isn’t afraid of finally putting her needs first so she wants to feel pampered and taken well care of before I get any attention.

It didn’t take long before she decided she needed to be fucked properly, so out came the new big dildo. The 10incher.
I put it on myself with a strap on harness and fucked her long and passionately while she used a small vibrator on her clit. This went on for a good while until she came and finally decided that it was my turn to be set free.

She unlocked me and said that I could fuck her any way I want. Any position, hard, soft, fast or slow.
However!
I had to put on the sleeve and if I could manage to cum while wearing it then I deserved my reward.

A little about the sleeve.
A short while back we bought a Tom of Finland sleeve that’s ridiculously big. It makes my dick over ten inches while wearing it and it’s even thicker than the new big dildo. Redraven doesn’t like it as much as the new diskos because the sleeve is so smooth on the surface while the new dildo has a nice textured surface.
Last time I used the sleeve I didn’t feel a thing while wearing it so I thought this time would be the same.
Turns out that eight days of not being let out of the cage does something to the sensitivity of your dick, and it didn’t take too long before I came hard inside the sleeve.
I was promptly ordered to go clean it, the dildos, myself and then promptly put the cage back on.

Afterwards I felt amazing. Part of me didn’t want to have an orgasm after only eight days, but it felt incredible. And then it… changed?
I don’t know what I thought would happen, but just one orgasm didn’t feel enough all of a sudden. I felt restless and satisfied at the same time. Would it be better if I was allowed to cum again? Our if the questions to ask such a greedy question, even though I’m sure my refractory period was way shorter last night than usual.
Maybe it would be better if I wasn’t allowed to cum at all?
I’m genuinely unsure right now.
I don’t know how long I’ll be locked up for this time and I’ve promised myself I’m not gonna ask.
Redraven has jokingly, or maybe she’s serious, that it’ll be double the time now. So 16 days?

I can’t wait to find out!

As always, I welcome feedback, questions and advice on this journal.
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but just one orgasm didn’t feel enough all of a sudden.
I have been in those shoes. Too bad for me that I don’t get to use a sleeve though. When I had my experience I got to cum three days in a row, it was for our first chastiversary. Only after the third day did I feel properly drained. The third day was a diy at her request. She said it would be my only opportunity for self indulgence for maybe another year.

As for your lockup times I commented on that over on. How does your kh determine when you orgasm. Hope I didn’t sound too haughty on the whole math lesson thing.
She says ‘it’s cute’ in the nub. ;)
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I thought I’d feel relaxed, content or even just uninterested in anything having to do with sex after getting to orgasm last night, but I’m hornier today than I was before I got to cum!
How? Why?

My body aches for having another release as soon as possible, but my head is luckily in the game. I know I’ll feel better if I just let this feeling of pent up sexual energy stay inside, but it’s hard to ignore the signals my body is sending me today.

Miss Redraven looks more beautiful and smells even better than usual today as well.
I’m glad I’ve not gotten any hints about how long I’ll stay locked up yet. Well she did let me know that she’s not even thought about it yet.
Either way it feels good not knowing. It makes speculating about when it’ll happen pointless and hopefully easier to just live in the moment.

My only regret at this point is that I didn’t reveal to miss Redraven that I’ve been wanting to live like this earlier. Then again there’s a big chance she wouldn’t be as open to it, so maybe things happen for a reason?

As always (since I see others feeling annoyed at having too many comments in their journal), I’m open to others thoughts and replies to my journal.
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Hey man, I'm always happy to comment. Big shock! :shock:

This is fantastic. You two seem to be finding a very nice rhythm, and not knowing when, I think, is best. @MrsLockNkey has shown me both ways.

You are doing great!

Thank you for encouraging feedback, it makes it easier to know where its "welcome", apart from the rule of minimal commentary on individual journeys - which is a fine rule -

It's just that, TTWD is such a metamorphic experience for men, that these journals almost beg interaction.
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For me, journaling my journey is for several reasons.

I want to put my experiences and feelings into writing for future reference.
I have pretty bad short term memory and tend to remember the big picture very well, but details often fade into obscurity.
I’m also finding that writing about my experiences helps me process them better. They’re not just feelings and thoughts inside my head, but feels more real when they’re put down on paper (or ones and zeros).

I’m also interested in connecting with others who’s have similar interests and experiences as well as getting their feedback and thoughts.

I’ll always try to end my journal entries with words that encourage engagement.
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Chosen_Jackal wrote: Sun Jan 26, 2025 1:22 pm (or ones and zeros).
It's all binary!