Here is my story. Coming to the cycling part at the end.

Wanted to stop but always had difficulty. Never saw it as cheating neither did wife. However obviously she did not know I was rubbing him up to 5x per day watching you know what. After birth of my amazing little kids (4 y and 18 months) and our baby lying between me and my wife until now the bedroom activity fell to zeero.
But what does a wanker do? He does not try to change that - he just wanks.... Up to 5x per day.
I felt empty, I was grumpy and I was nasty with my wife. I did not want to be, i noticed it but whenever my wife said something in a harsh way I would loose my cool.
I don't want that anymore. Since Thursday I have not wanked again, however I had amazing PIV Sex Friday Morning, Saturday night, Sunday night and yesterday but felt so much better. I know I can't stop wanking without help so I was fantasizing about a Holy Trainer and opened up to my wife yesterday. It was a very emotional talk in which I explained I had a problem and that I was not fair to her asked her if she felt a difference in the past few days and asked her if she would be willing to try locking my weener away. We felt so connected and she is on board. So today I ordered a Holy Trainer small in black and am waiting with a tad of fear and excitement.
Now to the cycling part. Pretty interesting. So I am cycling to work on and off. Very irregularly since our holidays in July. My performance is 10% below what it was in July when i would cycle regularly. Yesterday about half way in (8 of 16k uphill) I noticed that I was pushing hard without getting tired so I kept pushing and when at home was not exhausted but had reached July levels. 10% faster than a week earlier. Seems to me the energy that I am not draining came to work here but might be wrong.
Anyhow - thanks for all your writings. I really enjoy your posts and hope this journey will be a success.