[Parky14] The start of my denial

[Parky14]

After deciding I was getting too much self pleasure, some times many times a day I looked into chastity and came across this site.

I read much about devices, key holders and denial and thought it would be a good move for me to start self denial and then once comfortable with the CD, hand the keys over to my partner.

I studied the posts about devices and sizing and in the end opted for a Steelworxx Steelheart.
I have a 10mm PA in my dick, so I have a very secure device with the PA fixing in it, even though I do hold the keys myself at the moment.

I got the CD yesterday and took it to work with me, and locked myself in at 14:00, it was a bit of a struggle as I was a little excited, but I waited patiently and eventually I managed to fit the 47mm standard ring, the PA fixing and then the tube. What a thrill to be locked in. I have been locked in for 15 hours so far and counting.

As far a comfort goes, most of the time I don't even know I have the CD on.
I think I will swap to the 45mm anatomical ring this morning (with no funny business while free).
The tube is the right diameter as I would never have been able to get my dick and PA fixing in if it had been any smaller.
As for the length, it perhaps could have been shorter, but that is difficult to know as I can't actually see how full the tube is. I do know that the ball from my PA is right up against the hole in the tube so there can't be that much room in there.

I did have an erection this morning, not painful as I have very low hanging balls so the tube can move away from my body quite a bit (hence me trying the smaller ring today). Importantly though I could do nothing with the erection, there is no way to get the stimulation required to orgasam with my dick totally enclosed in metal, there is just no movement in the tube. I quickly realised that it was pointless to try, left it alone and in seconds it was gone - success !

The next step is to reveal the CD to my partner, that will be interesting.
You see we are a gay couple, BUT we no longer have sex.
So him being my key holder is not about him denying me, it is about me wanting to not have control myself.
Because of the lack of sex I masturbate far too much and worry I might look for sex elsewhere.
So being locked up and denied will actually make me happy, and will probably mean nothing to him.
Which is fine and does exactly what I want

I need focus, control and denial.

[Parky14]

Photos of my in my new CD.

[Parky14]

Well I have swapped to the smaller 45mm anatomical ring.

Ring went on no problem, but had a semi-erection so had to be patient until I relaxed.
I also too the opportunity to swap to a smaller 8mm thick PA.
The 10MM PA I have uses a ball which is just a push fit, and although I was not worried about me being able to undo the PA in the tube, I was concerned it might come free itself and be rattling around in there. So I have now used a captive ball PA ring, which cannot be removed without tools, more secure.

I did have a bit of a panic though when I was locking myself back in.
I got the lock halfway in the CD and I accidentally turned the lock, now this would not normally be possible as it can only be locked when fully inserted BUT I had also not quite got the two parts together properly, so the lock part engaged with the gap between the two parts. Panic - I could not unlock the lock as it would not turn in the place it had engaged, I was trapped! I calmed myself down and thought "if it went in and locked, it will unlock and come out". So with a bit of painful manipulation I managed to twist the two parts of the device so that I could unlock the lock and pull it out. I was much more careful about lining up the parts after that, and will be in the future!

I have found that some Shea Cocoa Butter is excellent for providing a little lubrication around the cock ring. It is what I used with my ball weights when I was stretching them, really helps soften the skin and give a good stretch.

So I'm back under lock and key with the smaller ring, now to shower and see what the cleaning routine will be like. I don't have a device like Thumper has yet to squirt water up into the tube, but I will find a way for now.

I guess the next question is, when do I come out next?
I see no reason bar accidents and emergencies to let myself out for the foreseeable future.
I will of course report back, probably on a daily basis to journal my self denial process.

[Parky14]

Decided to trim the bush, so new better photos.

[Parky14]

Last 2 pics.

[Parky14]

So a quick update on progress......

I am approaching 24 hours in chastity.
I have told my partner about the device and will hand over the keys tonight for 'hiding'.
So far I have been very comfortable, no issues at all.
Had a shower and seemed to be able to wash OK.
Also been for a piss a few times, best to sit down I think for now, but the stream does seem manageable from the Steelheart so may revert to standing soon.
Have noticed that it seems to drain well after a piss, which is good news as I used to have to pull back my long foreskin from my big PA ring to ensure there was no piss left up there (it can collect quite a lot).
Now I don't need to bother as the foreskin is being held back in the tube by the PA fixing, another benefit.

Wearing a kilt today to get the full benefit of the new found weight, quite fun.

Really happy about the no sex, have been looking at porn today, no erections
Have noticed a few precum dribbles, but nothing to worry about.
Can't wait to not have access to the keys!

[Parky14]

Well I am now not in control of my cock, the keys have been removed from me and hidden.

Let's see how long I can go, no time is planned for release.

[Parky14]

Thanks.

Went in the hot tub last night, no issues and it is a good way of getting some hot clean water in and around my cock. Still seems very comfortable, no probs, the foreskin swelling was resolved with a smaller PA ring, think the bigger one was trapping the skin.

Had a bit of a restless night last night.
Woke up at 3am with a raging erection.
No in pain as there is room in my tube for some expansion and the tube was pushed well away from my body by it as I have been stretching my balls for years. Without the PA fixing I would be able to escape, but with it, even with the extra growth room there is no way I can this thing off. I also tried wanking, no joy there either there is just no way to get any friction or feeling to my cock, so that is good news. I needed to test it, so that I could change the device if needed to prevent ejaciulations.

Anyway the erection stayed for over an hour, glad it went down !

How do I feel about not being in control anymore, have to say its scary and exciting.
I am so focused on seeing how long I can go without orgasam.
I will stay locked as much as possible 24/7, with minimal unlocking for cleaning in the tube, I won't of course wank when I'm out, it will be a quick 2 minute unlock, under supervision.

I can't say I want to orgasam at the moment, it would have been good to be able to get rid of the erection last night, but that was more practical than sexual.

I have decided to stop the porn, pictures and videos, no point watching now, and that was part of the reason for chastity.

I am going to a gay club on Friday night, it is fetish night, I will be locked up and naked, not sure how that will go! I might wear my urinal gag and service men as a piss drinker all night, and avoid any arse action.

[Atone]

Had a bit of a restless night last night.
Woke up at 3am with a raging erection.

Some nights are going to be like that. I will sometimes go a week or more without waking up in the early morning and then I might have several days in a row like what you describe.

Anyway the erection stayed for over an hour, glad it went down !
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I can't say I want to orgasam at the moment, it would have been good to be able to get rid of the erection last night, but that was more practical than sexual.

Try drinking water before you go to bed, staying hydrated seems to help me. Plus if you go pee it will usually knock down the erection. Sometimes walking around for a minute or two will help.

[Parky14]

Thanks, very helpful

Well I am now on day three, with 52 hours under lock and key.
Not had any desire to try to find the key yet
Do I feel different - not sure, but I have still be wasting time by looking at chastity websites!
Perhaps I just need to forget about it and get on with my life.