Had a bad day yesterday. Not sure why but I was pissed off about everything. For some reason I was pissed at Mrs. G. She has been busy preparing a biannual report for work and I have felt forgotten for a few days now.
She has been leaving the emergency key visible for some time now. It’s a test I know. She admitted she was playing with my diy guilt. So I fell of the wagon and unlocked to give myself a go. Then I saw the return of some dry skin from the plastic nub. I wore it all summer with no problems and now this for a second time. It really took the thrill out of my notion to wank. So I lotioned up real good and left myself unlocked. I’m wondering if it’s the dry air from the wood heat.
Later in the evening heading to the shower.
Her. Your unlocked, why is that? I hope it’s because of your shower.
Me. Yes and no. It’s because I was pissed off at the world and was done with the cage. Then I saw my skin and came to my senses. And I felt selfishly neglected like it didn’t matter to you anymore.
Her. We’re you a good boy or did you play with yourself?
Me. Well, I wanted to but I didn’t. So I was kind of a good boy. But also a bit bratty too.
Her fondling me. You need to know I do care. Now get your shower. Then we need to get your skin healed up. In the mean time we need to figure out how to keep you healthy in your cage.
Me. So you want me to keep caged.
Her laughing. Absolutely! You’re not going back now. I want you locked for me. Remember that’s my cock you carry around.
She is so amazing. She brought me to my senses. I couldn’t do this without her. I feel so guilty about my attitude. And a metal nub is on order.
This whole leaving me home alone with the key is strange. It causes a feeling of she doesn’t care and at the same time I realize she may care more about me than I know. After all I have never had this much self control before.
The thought of wearing my own key but only able to use it with her permission would demonstrate just how much control she has on me. I doubt I mention the idea to her, just thinking out loud.
Not sure but I may have been experiencing a delayed drop from my piv cum a few days ago. If so I’ll need to learn how to deal with it better or avoid it all together.
