[Sam3655] I’ve put it out there

[Chosen_Jackal]

I’m glad you’re sharing with us.
You deserve to feel appreciated. We all do.
We may be weird men who get off on locking our penises in steel or plastic, but we have emotional needs and deserve to have them met in a healthy relationship.

I’m not going to pretend that I know you well enough to tell you what to do, but I hope you figure a way forward that gives you purpose and fulfillment.

[Tongue+groove]

Sorry to jump in here but I must say that our household runs on the motto.

The lack of communication is the source of all problems.

Anytime we have an issue it only gets worked out by talking. Usually once it’s resolved we remind ourselves of this motto. FWIW we have never in 39 years gone to sleep in disagreement. In our early years we have had some really late nights but we have always talked it out. It’s a commitment that has gotten easier with time.

I’m no counselor by any means but is this forum your only source to communicate your feelings. Is it time to have a serious discussion?

I hesitate to post this, but I will anyway. Hopefully things improve for you.

[Sam3655]

Being CS’s birthday today, had high hopes of being unlocked and used. What’s a birthday without a candle? And 5 of my 12 orgasms in 2022 happened this weekend as did 2 of my 6 last year. But it has not been the case as I remain locked. Day 317 since last orgasm as she is one shy of 130 this year. Orgasms that is. Not her age.

So her birthday weekend commenced as one day is not enough. CS tells me I am lucky as her sister celebrates her birthday a whole month. But I have to ask if two wrongs don’t make a right, do two self centered sisters make a good person? I say thee “Nay”.

Saturday I am told she has to work but can take time to come to the bookstore with me if we can also stop at a store she wants to hit. At the book store I am told she would like to eat lunch at the Texan cause they have hush puppies and she wants hush puppies for her birthday. And beef rib tips and garlic mash potatoes. I am not a cheap person. I spoil my loved ones but I think lunches should not cost what this meal does. While we eat. I am told Sunday she will be going to her daughter’s house cause her girls want to make her dinner for her birthday. I say okay. Couple minutes pass and then I am told I can come if I want too but I won’t have fun as they sit and talk and play board games. I may miss social cues but I do catch a “I am inviting you but don’t really want you to accept” invite.

Sunday is another lunch and she needs to get her car gassed up. We pull up to the pump and I say I guess I’m pumping the gas as it’s your birthday. She says, No, you pump gas cause I hold the key”. The rest of the day is spent working and taking care of her animals while her children celebrate her birthday. There is a wrestling show on television. Thank goodness I believe in Joe Hendry or I wouldn’t believe in anything. Well I believe my mood ring but it seems to be black quite a lot.

I guess I need to wrap this up. CS wants me to take her to see the new Mission Impossible movie and of course she will need popcorn and a cherry slushy. It is her birthday weekend after all. And she felt the need to wake me from a nap to tell me this and to go back to sleep. It’s these days that make me think my ex-wife really wasn’t all that bad.

Update: Mission Impossible Final Reckoning was totally enjoyable and the bi-plane sequence incredible and needs to be seen on the big screen.

[denied_one]

I may miss social cues but I do catch a “I am inviting you but don’t really want you to accept” invite.

Ouch!

It’s these days that make me think my ex-wife really wasn’t all that bad.

Double ouch!!

[Sam3655]

CS transcribes depositions and trials as her line of work. So I get a lot of comments about trials she is working on or in the news. Today she was talking about P Diddy and his sex crimes and asked me if I thought Jennifer Lopez would be brought in to testify as they were engaged at one point. I said I would doubt P Diddy did anything around JLo out of fear of her. CS says I am probably right cause JLo seems like if you make her angry, she would take a bull knife and cut his balls off and not tie the cords.

She then grabbed my balls, squeezed and said,”You get to keep these.” But then added, “For Now”.

These comments are started to mess with my mind.

[Sam3655]

The American Hospital System and Insurance companies seem to conspire. CS’s mother who is in upper 80’s had hip replacement surgery that set off a bunch of other issues including degenerative heart failure and had to have her heart shocked to get it back in rhythm. Despite the heart issues, swelling in the legs, being in continent and low oxygen levels along with never getting rehab for the hip replacement, the insurance company denied further treatment and denied the appeal resulting in CS’s mother being discharged and sent home.

CS packed a suitcase with the keys and left Friday for who knows how long. I offered to come for the weekend to help as CS has a meniscus tear herself and would be unable to help her mother up should she fall. I also have a load of vacation time I could use. But it is her mother and her job to look after her as I was told. I am woman hear me roar. Heck I wasn’t even allowed to load a cooler of drinks for the road trip. So I just stayed out of the way loading her suitcase into her car when it was ready. I did give her the contact information for my step father who lives about eight miles away in case CS needed help. And CS’s brother lives about three miles away so there is help.

Me, I am left to maintain the house and take care of her pets. Next weekend is the Superman festival in Metropolis, Illinois. CS and I were going to go but doubt she will be back so I am thinking I will still go. Cats should be fine alone for a day and a half.

[Tongue+groove]

The American insurance corporations is nothing more than legalized theft. Doctors in this country can’t be doctors. The insurance companies are out of control. Personally I am considering going to one of those enrollment with a doctor plans. Can’t think of the proper name at the moment but a friend of mine did and it’s awesome.

If Americans would ban together and abandon one medical insurance company at a time we could change it back to what it was meant to be. Myself I have an advanced math degree and I despise the actuarial sciences. Those people are the black sheep of the mathematical family. They’re cutting their own throat and don’t even know it.

Sorry for the rant. Best wishes to your family, you’re in our prayers.

[Sam3655]

Thank you for the well wishes. They are appreciated

Oh, my occupation is an internal auditor for an insurance company.

[Tongue+groove]

. Oh, my occupation is an internal auditor for an insurance company.

So it seems that I have a way of shooting my mouth off in public and online when I should probably just keep my opinions to myself.

Thanks for not blocking me from your journey, I do enjoy the reading.

[Sam3655]

It’s all good. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. I have done the same thing at a card party. I was on a rant about IT to a guy and saw my brother off to the side smirking. I looked back at the guy and said “and you work in IT”.