[Chosen_Jackal] Pinch me, is this really happening?

[Tongue+groove]

I’ve considered introducing the humbler to Mrs. G. Just not sure if I’m ready. Also not sure how I would react with a dildo in my mouth. She has in the past ran her fingers in my mouth and gagged me just to demonstrate to me how talented she is that she can deep throat.

Maybe I shouldn’t mention this but while reading I thought for sure Miss. Red was going to clean up your mess with the dildo and reinsert it. Maybe next time you should be so lucky, at least you know it’s 34 days away.

Keep having fun.

[Chosen_Jackal]

Don’t give her ideas man!

[Tongue+groove]

Sorry, but hey I doubt Miss Red needs any help. I would be afraid to know what she has in reserve in her mind.

[Chosen_Jackal]

Let me start by apologizing for the novel I’m dumping on you here.
You’ve been warned.

I’ve been feeling hollow for the last two days. Like I’ve been walking around with a part of my soul missing.
I’m not a spiritual person at all, but that’s the best way I can think to describe it.
But even though I’ve felt this loss inside, I’ve know that it will return if I just give it time. It’s not gone forever, it’s just hiding away, rebuilding and growing.

I’m talking about my sexual energy.
Red made me orgasm two days ago, and before that it had been 33 days.
That’s not long compared to many into the chastity lifestyle, but it was our personal record so far.
I absolutely loved the tension and energy I was carrying around in my body. I swear I felt every touch, compliment, humiliating remark, and whatever way Red chose to inflict pain on another level.
It’s like my senses were turned up to eleven.
It also made me see and think of Red in a way that I never thought possible.
I love her more than anything in the world, but I was downright obsessed with her.
My love and attraction towards her was a physical send that I could feel in my body.

And then it’s like a switch flipped in my brain and everything felt muted. A bit grey.
I still love Red as much as ever of course, but I wasn’t overwhelmed with the sensation anymore.

I was experiencing the drop as we call it.

This puts me in a difficult position. I want to have orgasms. They’re awesome!
But if this is the price I have to pay for them Im suddenly not so sure.
Maybe it’s best if I don’t cum anymore and Red sticks to giving me ruined orgasms whenever she feels like it?
That way we take a bit of pressure off the top and I stay just as wound up and focused on her as we both want me to be.

So I talked to Red last night.
Told her about how I felt, and also mentioned that I’ve felt that we haven’t been as close and connected as we’re used to.
She listened and said what I knew to be true, that this is my reaction to what happened and that nothings really changed.
I’m just experiencing it differently.

We also talked a bit about where we want our FLR to develop and what we both can do to make it happen the way we want it to.
We both agreed that we need to step up our game even further, not that we’ve been neglecting each other, but there are still areas where we tend to fall back to old habits so we agreed to "fake it til we make it" in those areas.
Everything is so much better when you talk to your partner about how you’re feeling instead of carrying in inside.
I believe that’s the most important lesson we’ve learned from this lifestyle.

The conversation ended with Red telling me that she needed a sleeping pill so we got ready for bed.
I can’t explain how happy I am that Red is finally comfortable with me getting her off with oral sex.
It’s something I’ve always wanted to do for her, but she’s not been very fond of it in the past.
Well that’s changed and I believe it’s quickly become one of her favorite ways to get her little sleeping pills.
It was a big pill last night.

I genuinely can’t remember who brought it up, but we talked about how it will be a long time until she lets me have an orgasm again.
We also talked about how piv sex will be a very rare treat for me going forward.
We’re planning on getting married at the end of October and she mentioned I might not get it again before then.

My birthday is between now and then!

We got into how it’s only been two days so far and that it wouldn’t really matter if I had another orgasm at this point.
I belive Red wanted one last round of fucking from me before we took it off the menu for a while, and I’m just a horny bastard so I jumped at the opportunity to get my cock in her.

I’m woefully out of practice after months of chastity, and the sensitivity of my cock has skyrocketed after being almost untouched for so long, but I managed to keep going for a while.
She bent over and presented her beautiful ass to me.
It felt even better than I remembered!
I managed to keep control even as Red started breathing heavy and small moans escaped her lips.
But she’s pure evil sometimes that woman. She turned around and said with that voice that drives me crazy, "I hope you’re enjoying yourself, because it’s going to be a long fucking time until you get to do this again!"

I blew my load immediately.

What happened next is something I’ve fantasized about, but never expected to happen.
I’ve never thought it would be something Red is into or that I would chicken out when the moment comes, but to my surprise I followed through with it when Red told me to go down there and clean her out.
It was the way she said that left no room for me to deny her.
It was intimate and hot.
She always tastes amazing and this time it was mixed with something new.
I’m so grateful that she made me do it, and she told me it was really exciting for her as well.

I sheepishly asked if I was to sleep caged or uncaged, and she snorted "caged of course!" in reply.
I locked back up and we fell asleep with her smutty audiobook playing in the background…

[Tongue+groove]

I’ve been feeling hollow for the last two days. Like I’ve been walking around with a part of my soul missing.
I’m not a spiritual person at all, but that’s the best way I can think to describe it.

Hopefully my thoughts here are not out of line. If I ever cross it please say so.

Sometimes I don’t get the drop for as much as 48 hours later. We have both learned to recognize it and she knows how to help me out of it. I did as you did and suggested maybe ruining is the way to go. She has seen the benefits to the point that she has come to grips with taking control of my orgasms and even reducing my ruins. I never realized how uncomfortable piv had become for her and she has learned to love my tongue more than anything else.

Like you and just about anyone else I too want orgasms, it’s only natural. It takes a caring woman to keep you in line.

And finally about not being a spiritual person. I am convinced that all people are spiritual. It’s what makes us different from the animal kingdom. For example, I know a lady who used to do home sex toy / product parties. She asked if Mrs. G would like to do one. I said all her friends where from church and it might not go over so well. This ladies response was, “oh those are the best ones, church going couples are the most sexually active clients that I have.”

The deeper level that you say you connect with red on is where the spiritual side is. Animals have sex for reproduction and nothing else. Yes people have sex for reproduction and pure enjoyment, but there is always an emotional connection. Even the walk of shame has an emotional title. The deeper rooted connection comes when the sexual activity is a result of a developing relationship.

Ok, now I’m rambling, sorry. If you want to talk about it more just PM me. If not that’s cool to. I’m always willing to share my faith but I won’t cram it down your throat.

[Chosen_Jackal]

No worries, you’re always welcome in my thread.

I belive in the human spirit, in art, in music and how we have the intellect and capacity for abstract thought.
What I dont personally belive in is what’s thought of as religion, mythology, etc.


I didn’t get this kind of drop when I had my orgasms a little over a month ago, and I’ve not experienced anything like it from last nights orgasm, so I can only assume that the context and how she lets me cum has a significant impact on how I react.

[Tongue+groove]

. I can only assume that the context and how she lets me cum has a significant impact on how I react.

Yes I agree wholeheartedly with this. My problem is I can’t put my finger on exactly what causes the drop intermittently.

It has to be a brain chemical shift. I’m just not sure what it is and why it doesn’t always happen.

I am also convinced that my level of anticipation has a direct correlation to the drop.

If you figure it out please share your results.

[Chosen_Jackal]

Not too much to share.
I’ve not felt the same drop after Red allowed me to fuck her so I definitely think the emotional context around how I orgasm affect how I feel afterwards.
We’re complicated beings, and as a professional in the healthcare system I can definitely say with confidence that our physical selves are only part of how we feel and function.

Red is busy with work, but she’s also quitting nicotine.
She stopped smoking many years ago, but I’m so proud of her for quitting nicotine completely.
I know it’s hard on her, so I try to just be here for her. No expectations. No judgment.
Just here to listen and take whatever she feels she has to get out in the moment.
This is a way of showing love for her that I am grateful to do.

[denied_one]

Oh wow! Orgasm denial for you and nicotine cessation for Her. That seems like a very delicate balance. Good luck!

[Tongue+groove]

Oh my. I have heard it said that when people quit nicotine their hunger increases. Maybe hers will be for more attention from you.

Best of luck.