I'm considering a way to try to work out a week or two to test the "return to normal" condition for myself, but I still worry about how easy it is for me to give in to bad thoughts. I have way too many years of wicked ways, if you know what I mean. I'm all for humbling myself, but that would be a really bad thing for me to fall that way again. It's not the masturbation that would get me, I feel pretty confident about staying strong against that. Rather, it's the ladies of temptation that I believe would defeat me.
I won't be cutting it off or tearing it out, but maybe a little shrinkage, even if permanent, is a small price to pay to escape eternal fire. This was on my mind in the first place when I agreed to wear a device. I had conquered masturbation, but I was defeated by the coochie, so I decided it would be best to take stronger precaution with a stainless steel barrier. I think that's probably still true. It helps me to write this down and convince myself.If your hand or your foot should be your downfall, cut it off and throw it away: it is better for you to enter into life crippled or lame, than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire. And if your eye should be your downfall, tear it out and throw it away: it is better for you to enter into life with one eye, than to have two eyes and be thrown into the hell of fire.
Even when I removed the device to let it rest, it was only for a few hours at a time, and then it was back on at night. That seemed to be enough to let it heal. Everything is pretty much back to normal now.
I think I am going to look into a slightly smaller size for comfort. I do like the MCN Contender that I have, mostly because I can really forget about it most of the time. It's easy to keep clean and fresh. The only real downside, apart from metal detectors, is that it has become more bulky and unwieldy now that it isn't as snug of a fit as it used to be. For that reason, I think it makes sense to look at shortening it up.