Should I keep going?

[locked4her55]

Great analogy TM

[newbie]

Thanks for everyones advise to me, I appreciate the *learn from my mistakes* and *give it time* angle to the advice. There really isn't much to report right now, she is out of town for work and this time I didn't lock up and give her the key. I left that all at home, and only self lock when I feel that I need it to prevent masturbation, like today... .

I think the plan going forward is to keep chastity as a part-time thing and wear it at home most of the time. I'm not really into wearing it 24 hrs a day and don't think it would really benefit me or her to do so. I still want to make our bedtime sessions all about her, but want to be able to unlock quickly if she feels the need. I'll let her know that I will unlock whenever she wants me to, but will stay locked in bed unless she says so. I feel that keeping the device as part of our play is important, and it will show her that I am still serious about it and am willing to keep wearing it. Hopefully this will show her that it's not a passing fad or a kink that will go away on it's own.

I must admit that I did "fall off the wagon" last Friday in that I was pretty horney while wearing my device and decided to try using our vibrating massager against my device and balls since I had never tried it before.
At first nothing happened when I tried it against my balls and perineum even though it felt good, but then I put it against the cage and it gave me a strange sensation. It felt like my member was asleep or something, but then all of a sudden I felt this wave of orgasm come across me and I proceeded to cum. I came alot but there was no erection (obviously) or touching of any kind except for the massager. It felt great as it relieved over a months worth of pent up stress and horneyness but then soon after I felt just as horney as I did before. The perfect ruined orgasm. I felt bad for doing it, but I knew she was going to be gone on another trip for over a week and was pretty sure I couldn't last much longer. I was becoming very distracted and horney, and it was becoming more and more difficult to focus at work and home.

I was free for the weekend and then have been self locked on and off ever since.