Struggling With My Chastity Demons

[wishful4]

This is just ramblings from 6 weeks into a locked period, but I often lose hours of sleep struggling with my chastity demons. Very early this morning as I was spooned up behind my KH/spouse in bed, feeling her body so close, swollen, straining, and throbbing in my cage, my chastity demons were screaming in each ear. The bad demon said, you could end this. She doesn't hide the keys, but just expects compliance. Get up and unlock yourself and in a matter of minutes you can achieve a climax and be spurting all over the bathroom. She would never know.

Then the good demon says, but at what cost. You have spent months and months telling her this is who you are and this is the way you want to be loved. You've bought many books for her, sent scores of information on submission and chastity via email for her to read. She now finally understands this is all about her and is coming into her own as a dominant keyholder. Now you want to throw it all away for 15 seconds of bliss, then days of regret??? If she found out she would end the game. Needless to say. the good demon usually always wins out.

[finallyhappy]

I hear you. Coming up to 7 weeks is by far my longest stretch. Thank goodness the only key at my house is sealed in an envelop.

But I do envy you spooning her. I can't wait until the first night that I get to spoon my gf while I'm still locked up.

[hot_toddy_dog]

Stay strong my friend!! Submission is for the weak!

Perhaps slightly misphrased.

Cuddling her is the best way to fall not asleep, but into bliss. Whenever I need inspiration to continue, I think how proud of myself for how I have made it thus far, and how much of a setback it would be to be lax, allow myself an orgasm and fall back. The longer you go, the stronger this incentive to continue becomes

Now, when the urge arises, even on a fairly sleepless night, I don't even think of masturbating... I just fantasize about cuddling her and being happy that she has had all the orgasms for the past 1, 2, 6.. months, weeks, what have you. And I snuggle right up against her and just enjoy the bliss of knowing that. This puts me right to sleep.

The only reason I would ever condone removing a device unbeknownst to a KH is unbearable pain or chafing.

[mistress is god]

Might I suggest if you are struggling with your demons that you get her to by an electronic safe. They are not expencive mine was only about £30. Once your key is in it and only she knows the code then only she is going to let you out.

Bad demon gone....

[locked4her55]

She doesn't hide the keys

I don't know if this would work for me. My wife/KH has right from the beginning hid the keys when I was in my CB6000s. It added to the desire to know they were hidden and she knew I had my weak moments. She also knew that in an emergency I had a pair of bolt cutters in my basement shop that I could be out in seconds. Over time tho I realized that even if I found a key I wouldn't most likely unlock myself. She's being a great KH which makes me want to be a faithful husband.

There were 2 keys to my brass CB lock. About a year ago my wife went to the local hardware store and had 2 more keys made up. When she got home she took a small metal file to the keys to alter them just a bit so that they would go in but not open the lock. Well several weeks later she announced on Date Night that I would be given a key at the end of the evening. My excitement grew and after I had pleasured her to several wonderful O's my wife produced a key. With great anticipation and drama she placed the key in the lock and tried to turn the key. After several attempts and playing the game to it's fullest she told me that she was sorry that there would be no getting out tonight since this was not the right key. If you could have seen my face I said "No, please try it again, you didn't turn it right" I took the key from her and tried again and again as she kissed me gently and said "I love you, goodnight". She rolled over and said I could spoon her if I wanted. Well she didn't lie to me when she said there would be a key at the end of the night. I just didn't know it wasn't the right key! A mind is sometimes a wonderful thing to play with.

There have been several times since then that she will display three keys on the bed. She say's "one works, two do not. How lucky do you feel?" I am not allowed to get close to the keys for a comparison. Makes me feel like I'm on Let's Make A Deal

Bottom line is that I had many Demons in the beginning. Now, even if I found a key I truly don't believe I would do anything more than tell my wife "find a better hiding place".

[finallyhappy]

Locked I love that story. She has such a wonderful sense of humor.

[locked4her55]

Locked I love that story. She has such a wonderful sense of humor.

I like sometimes to surprise my wife with a gift and use a little "misdirection" when giving it. I think she takes on the chalange when the opportunity affords her

[chaste]

Have you tried telling her this? Maybe she's be inclined to keep the key more secure if she knows there's a certain risk you might cheat behind her back.

[mistress is god]

She doesn't hide the keys

With great anticipation and drama she placed the key in the lock and tried to turn the key. After several attempts and playing the game to it's fullest she told me that she was sorry that there would be no getting out tonight since this was not the right key. If you could have seen my face I said "No, please try it again, you didn't turn it right" I took the key from her and tried again and again as she kissed me gently and said "I love you, goodnight". She rolled over and said I could spoon her if I wanted. Well she didn't lie to me when she said there would be a key at the end of the night. I just didn't know it wasn't the right key! A mind is sometimes a wonderful thing to play with.

Wow what a true key holder at her best. This is just fasntastic, you very lucky man. You must have been ready to burst when you got the wrong key

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