I know this is my own issue. Attachment issues make chastity difficult for me.

[DrPinotNoir]

So I have a mental health background and so I realize what I am doing. So I am just going to save a long winded reply to the people that say "You should submit to whatever your keyholder says" While I understand and respect how you do this. This is not going to work for me. However I am curious if there are any others out there like me that "Play this way" Here are facts.

1. My wife loves me in 24/7 chastity. my wife has never lied to me. I can tell she loves it. I know that is 100% a gift too. She say I am a much MUCH more loving person to her. She for the first time in our life had control of our sex life. And chastity for the first time in our 35 year relationship has let her relax and actually get horny for the FIRST time in her life. We met when she was 17. I was 18. She was a virgin etc.. So she has never experienced sexual desire so much so that she uses a vibrator because she has very strong feelings now. "sex isnt a chore" and she does it for the fun of it. She likes the power she has over me. She likes how I behave with it on.

2. I love it. I love the chastity cage being on. Almost all my sexual energy focuses on her. I feel SOOOOO submissive to her when it is on. No more porn. No more fantasies about other people/scenarios. Ive got classic Attachment problems. My mother would leave me in a playpen for long periods of time. She used to crank up the stereo when I started screaming and crying. (This is shit my wife never did. She was the opposite to a fault) Anyhow I KNOW 100% that I need attention. That is the way it is. I got battle damage from years ago. (Im doing fine. Everyone has problems that is my biggest one)

Anyhow onto how we play chastity. So we play a little different. She locks me up. She hides one key.. sometimes she wears it.. sometimes not. Sometimes she will lock it in a timelock safe and let it expire. Sometimes I will come downstairs at 6 am thinking "The safe just opened. Time to unlock before work" and she has added 8 hours to the timer!!! (turns out this was her mindfucking me. I had to ask for the key respectfully.) She doesnt like me going to work with it on. "What if you get caught. I dont want that. Im not sure how people at work are going to see my locked penis but ok. I mean she does make the rules) She cares for me and doesnt want me to get screwed up so she unlocks me before I leave. I ride my bike.. she tells me to go hide while she seeks out the key she has in the house somewhere to give to me.

So here is the thing. Because of my attachement problems and fear of abandonment. I need her to tease me. We have started and stopped Chastity MANY times because What happens is initially she will give me a squeeze when I walk by her and ask "How is my cock? Oooh nice.. locked" Then Ill get a kiss.. or last night she told me to go sit on the couch. She had my TV show on netflix queued and when I hit play her hand went under the blanket and she started massaging my balls through my underwear. She woudl squeeze hard a few times. "Did that hurt?" (serious concern) "Not really it sorta did but it is ok." "Ok good. Im going to continue squeezing because I want to."

See this goes on and she is gang busters for like 2-3 days. Then.. it starts to taper off. No more touching no more talk.. Im locked in this cage 24/7 and I feel like I am being 100% ignored. At about 48 hours of being ignored I get angry AND nasty. I cant help it. I try.. I KNOW what is going on in my head. then we fight.. and both of us take it off and it sets us back.

This last time was 2 months. It went back on last night.

Anyhow we talked about it.. I told her "I need you to tease me on the regular." I need to feel like I have not been forgotten about. She got it. She says "i feel like I kept up the intensity and never backed off." So.. There it is. Im hoping for some growth this time. I dont see stuff like this posted in here. I would bet our way isnt unique. However we are not the poster children for Chastity. That is for sure. Not sure how much "care and feeding" I need to stay in but right now I look down when im in the bathroom and love being owned by her.