[Mr Pickle] one step forwards, two steps back
Posted: Tue Nov 19, 2019 4:05 pm
[Mr Pickle] one step forwards, two steps back
Changed my intro. Things change.
This journey covers five years (so far) from a kink in my head to an insanely better life for the whole family.
Yes it's about cock cages and sex and how it comes about etc. But more importantly how C my wife changes, and how it enables her to mould these changes to a much better life.
We were (still) married with kids.
At the start we have been married 15 years.
C is the petite a beautiful woman whom due to religious upbringing was a bit wary about this stuff or kinks in general,
but she caught on pretty fast once things got going. However the "getting going" took the best part of a year.
Now after 15 years of marriage sex was still good (In that it still happened).
My wife wants me to feel satisfied and seems happier if we have sex regular. even if it's a hand job.
but I'm starting to not rise to the occasion. or lose it while in the act. my usual answer is to try to spice it up a bit. new toy. new kink ect.
Saying C was strictly vanilla wouldn't be fair. Its more bound by our lifestyle (we have kids) so as much as we would.. spontaneous over the table isn't an option. Spontaneity isn't an option at all.
Sex becomes a bit tedious. No matter what you do. Do it often and it just isn't as exciting.
Then theres the mercy sex. The uncomfortable sex and the guilt that goes with it.
We went through a stage where we just weren't getting on and we considered a break, Devorce...
And I thought "What?
Why are we thinking this? I know it's wrong."
I also knew it was mostly me.
Deep down I knew we loved and each other and the passion we had once was still there somewhere. I got some counciling. Therapy etc.
It was OK. But not enough.
So I kind of tricked and lied my way into this.
It didn't work of course and Im regretful. But what is done can not be undone.
Sorry honey, you deserved better. Now you have it.
A year into this and my wife.. C. she is my exciting! Often I have to catch my breath knowing how lucky I am.
My journey starts because I wanted something different. And something that might work for us.
I felt I had to be inventive. I also had to do a whole lot of shit shovelling.
Thank God she loves me regardless.
So this is the intro to my journey. Its back dated as I started my notes in june 2019 but will eventually got up to date.
Yes I've fucked up. Yes advice was needed.
Feel free to be outraged. At this time my apologies have already been made and debts being paid.
So here we go. Down the rabbit hole.
2019. It sunny and everyone is happy and weekend holidays have begun. A perfect time to bring up a new idea
so I start with.. " hey honey. Ive seen this interesting thing thst might help me in certain ways...and I'm cut off with "if it's anything about your penis or kinky wierd stuff the answer is NO! I don't want to know"
ok. expected I supose so now I know where I stand.
Over the years I've added all sorts of minor kinks which are now just normal but I've always had to use the back door or a round about way to get them in. so I figured I'll get one anyway figure it out and then find a way to introduce it.
I'll use my "Genius"
Changed my intro. Things change.
This journey covers five years (so far) from a kink in my head to an insanely better life for the whole family.
Yes it's about cock cages and sex and how it comes about etc. But more importantly how C my wife changes, and how it enables her to mould these changes to a much better life.
We were (still) married with kids.
At the start we have been married 15 years.
C is the petite a beautiful woman whom due to religious upbringing was a bit wary about this stuff or kinks in general,
but she caught on pretty fast once things got going. However the "getting going" took the best part of a year.
Now after 15 years of marriage sex was still good (In that it still happened).
My wife wants me to feel satisfied and seems happier if we have sex regular. even if it's a hand job.
but I'm starting to not rise to the occasion. or lose it while in the act. my usual answer is to try to spice it up a bit. new toy. new kink ect.
Saying C was strictly vanilla wouldn't be fair. Its more bound by our lifestyle (we have kids) so as much as we would.. spontaneous over the table isn't an option. Spontaneity isn't an option at all.
Sex becomes a bit tedious. No matter what you do. Do it often and it just isn't as exciting.
Then theres the mercy sex. The uncomfortable sex and the guilt that goes with it.
We went through a stage where we just weren't getting on and we considered a break, Devorce...
And I thought "What?
Why are we thinking this? I know it's wrong."
I also knew it was mostly me.
Deep down I knew we loved and each other and the passion we had once was still there somewhere. I got some counciling. Therapy etc.
It was OK. But not enough.
So I kind of tricked and lied my way into this.
It didn't work of course and Im regretful. But what is done can not be undone.
Sorry honey, you deserved better. Now you have it.
A year into this and my wife.. C. she is my exciting! Often I have to catch my breath knowing how lucky I am.
My journey starts because I wanted something different. And something that might work for us.
I felt I had to be inventive. I also had to do a whole lot of shit shovelling.
Thank God she loves me regardless.
So this is the intro to my journey. Its back dated as I started my notes in june 2019 but will eventually got up to date.
Yes I've fucked up. Yes advice was needed.
Feel free to be outraged. At this time my apologies have already been made and debts being paid.
So here we go. Down the rabbit hole.
2019. It sunny and everyone is happy and weekend holidays have begun. A perfect time to bring up a new idea
so I start with.. " hey honey. Ive seen this interesting thing thst might help me in certain ways...and I'm cut off with "if it's anything about your penis or kinky wierd stuff the answer is NO! I don't want to know"
ok. expected I supose so now I know where I stand.
Over the years I've added all sorts of minor kinks which are now just normal but I've always had to use the back door or a round about way to get them in. so I figured I'll get one anyway figure it out and then find a way to introduce it.
I'll use my "Genius"