Ok, I screwed up telling her I didn't want to cum. That's her decision, not mine. So I apologized to her
and said over the weekend it was going to be 100% what she wanted.
This was scary. I was worried that I was going to have to watch 6 hours of chic-flicks on TV or go with her as she got a pedicare. Or just the unknown of what would I then be stuck doing all weekend. So how did it go???
From my point of view, surprisingly 99% the same. There are two little habits I have she doesn't really mind, but they are my way of indicating I'm done or I'm ready to go. It was hard to not do those. Not painful, just took conscious effort to not do them. And a couple of times I expressed an opinion, once saying "but on Monday I'm going to...". Each of those times I caught myself and apologized.
And from her point of view? From the woman who when this first started told me she did not want a subservient husband? Someone who has always wanted our marriage to be between equals? From that woman?
She loved it! She said it was one of the best weekends ever. So we talked about it last night and she said she is good with me being very subservient to her and that she loves it. And she then made the sound of a whip snapping.
So going forward I will endeavor to be totally subservient to her. Which truth to tell is not that different from where we were. The big difference is at times I would express an opinion and we would then do what she wants. Now we don't waste time on my expressing an opinion.
It's scary, but also has me incredibly aroused.