Log
Day six sucks. I don't know why this happens? I get past day six and no problamo.
I've noticed that around the six day mark I start to get nervous. Nervous I might mess up, nervous I might miss a chance, nervous I might not be doing enough.
I also start gibbering it seems, I tell C how brill she is, how amazing, how fab. Or I'm too eager, or I'm too something else.
It just happens. At least "something" happens at day six.
This "something" C doesn't like, and she tells me off, dresses me down, and that sends me into a downward spiral.
It isn't the telling off as much as the way it's done. I'm not only addressed for this time around, I'm told off for every other time as well. It comes like assault and battery on my sole.
I've just been addressed in this way and I now feel lower than a whale turd.
C will most likley not think about it, or just forget it happened or apologise, and later will wonder what on earth I was down about.
I can't fake joy, I can't fake being normal. I've tried and C picks up on it straight away and sees it as it is. False.
So Ill do what I usually do. Shut the fuck up, chill out and try not to let it get to me.
I write this because I'm trying to learn how to avoid it, or to work out what it means?
Is it me? Or is it C. Maybe six days play is too much for C, she gets bored?
I said nothing until bedtime at which time I apologised for upsetting her.
C apologied back "I don't know why I treat you like that, you don't deserve it"
"Not a problem honey, so does that mean I get that oily now?"
"Not a chance, its too late, but in the morning while I read"
Sat morning C read while edging me until I couldn't take any more.
Sunday C let me me get on top and fuck her "I think I'd like to do it the old way, not done that for a while and it was my favourite"
"Great! Im going to give you a good old fucking then, get on your back Mrs C"
"ooh Mr P.. So big and hard and horny, show me what you can do with it"
And so I did..
3 minutes in and C said "Meh. Not as good as I remembered. I'll send you down to sort me out in the morning.. Got used to having Big orgasms now."
And that was it. My chance at showing what a real man with a real cock can do.
I think C has forgotten that she said I could cum today.