BWiley wrote:I have enjoyed reading your journal and how your wife and you have progressed. It seems like a normal progression where the wife/KH becomes more comfortable in their position and if there is any dominance in them, it grows and flourishes.
If you are concerned if she is seeing another man, your best option is to just ask her. But think about how you'd feel if she says yes. She also might say no. But if you keep having this question in the back of your mind, it will just fester and that is not a good thing.
As far as her not using you for sex, you could try to show her more attention without expecting release. Whatever you do for her, don't be driven by a hope for release. Do it because you love her and she is your KeyHolder/Wife.
Weekly orgasms aren't doing you any good in my opinion. Personally I have found it takes at least a week if not two for a feeling of submission to return to me. After orgasm it is common for a feeling of lethargy and self centeredness to take over your personality. This hurts your relationship with your wife because she doesn't see any advantage in having you locked up.
Enjoy your journey and it is one I wish I were on!
Thanks for listening,
BW
I'm glad you are enjoying my journal and love getting messages like yours. And to get opinion from the outside helps me to figure things out.
I'm happy to hear that my relationship is progressing like a normal wife/KH. And yes, she is becoming more and more comfortable with being a dominant wife/KH. I think that it will only get better. Harder for me at time but better for our relationship.
I know that I should just ask her if she is seeing an other man but this scares me. She is so happy right now and she keeps telling me that her life is perfect. And I don't want this to change. I have already thought about how I would be if I knew for sure and I would probably accept it. I have to be true to my self and I have already admitted to my self that this turns me on. If our relationship would be bad I think I would not accept it. I'm not the best in bed and feel that she should not be affected by that. Anyway, will see how things goes.
I think that this is the problem. I expect her to release me every time we touch each other. But I must admit that I'm getting used to not having orgasmes. I had many issues with it at the beginning but now I think that I accept it. I knew from the beginning that there was a good chance that my wife was not going to let me orgasme as I want but did not know how it would feel like. Now I know!
And I agree 100% with you regarding the way we are after an orgasme. I don't like the way I am after. I don't submit to her as much. I think of my self first. And most of the time I'm in a lazy mood. This were the reasons why I had introduced chastity to her. I'm a better men to her and in my own personal life when I'm in chastity.
I think that I will always have questioning times but know deep inside me that being in chastity 24/7 is the best thing that happened.
Today I've been locked for 28 days without any release. I have cum only once. I must admit that I'm very happy for what I have accomplished.
Again, thanks for your comments. I appreciate it and any new comments will also be.